Day Two, Week one |Potage Parmentier|

 Today was crazy, the net was crazy,  we were facing some challenges with schedules and so on, good thing, I did not freak out and managed to complete all of my assigned work without freaking out and left my workstation only an hour later than I was supposed to.

everything was okay, I still have not found leek and also that I'm pretty stubborn and competitive, actually the recipe calls for onions instead if I don't find leek  and I found as recently as today that the position I might have been offered is being offered to one of my coworkers and that, made me feel  a little bit troubled and mad, I felt like I let down the superior that had given me the opportunity  to stand in that spot, just because I was stressed enough to lose my north for a moment.

What surprised me more was the animosity I felt towards that coworker, and how I felt about myself because I wasn't as excited as he was about learning more things about that new position and to be fair I don't even know if  I really want it.

I started in the business because I needed the money, now I'm suddenly growing faster than expected and I'm not sure what I want anymore. Maybe I can stop trying to bite more than I can chew, maybe I should  use onions instead of leek. But at the end of the day those are the struggles that keep me going, it is going to be a long journey until I stop asking  myself to do more because I think  I can do it and start being  kinder and more lenient to myself.

I still want to try  the soup with leek though.

Remember to be kind to yourself